So I don’t know if I am the only one who had got these pre-travel jitters but they are really annoying. Dani is the most laid back, positive person most people will meet so when I was with her, her vibe rubbed off on me but when it was time to part our separate ways for a short time the jitters began.
Will I have enough money? Is this the right thing to do? What if it doesn’t work out?...Questions I have been asking myself on a daily basis including this morning and I suppose its normal to bit a little nervous before you start a new adventure but these questions were on replay.
Every day I would speak to Dani and calculate the amount of money we had, if we had enough and what we could spend even though the answer never changed I found comfort in her telling me that we were going to be ok. Going over the figures made me calm down and realise that if we wanted this to work then it would, but for sure the next day the same questions would begin.
I’m sure everyone at some point has been told not to discuss religion, politics or money, this has been true for our trip. Because I’m a worrier, I have caused a couple of arguments with Dani over money that I wish I didn’t and that weren’t needed. Society tells you that you need to settle down, get a 9-5 job, buy a house and live happily ever after and every time I come home to the UK I feel these pressures. When you’re at sea you’re in a little bubble and I’ve been lucky to find someone that makes me happy, that’s keeps our life exciting but when I come home and see the way my family and friends live it must rub off on me. I have no intention of ever living the 9-5 life-style and anyone who knows me probably couldn’t imagine me doing so, but for some strange reason coming home turns me into a crazy person. Luckily Dani is a very understanding person and she takes my craziness in her stride.
But today I had a realisation…if we want this to work then we will make it work. No amount of money will ever be enough, no time will be the right time, and we won’t know if it will work unless we try. So the travel jitters have been part of the journey and they have helped me realise how much I want this adventure with my Tigre.
So, say Bon Voyage to the travel jitters and bring on the adventures.